Thursday, July 31, 2008
1. He had to have been married before so that he knows what marriage is like and can compromise.
2. He should have no kids from a previous marriage. LOL…I didn’t want to deal with child support issues. I had my own to deal with.
3. He should be stable.
I can’t remember much more than that, as they were not as important to me as those were at the time. Well…I got those things. As I was lying in bed last night, I realized that my needs have changed. I suppose that it is me that has changed, and not so much my husband. When we met, I was the party girl. I enjoyed what he did. But over the years, that life had less appeal and I think that is what caused our drift.
So…what does this have to do with a list of goals or wants? Well when you declare your intentions, it makes you pay attention to those things and when opportunities arise, you are there, willing, able and wanting… So here is my list of what I want in a future partner.
1. He must like Chinese Food! LOL…I never get to go to my favorite restaurant with my partner!
2. I want a best friend first. Someone who I can tell everything too. Who will love me despite all my weird quirks.
3. Someone who is not afraid to make a fool of himself and be able to laugh at himself and who will dress up for Halloween with me as that is my favorite time of year!
4. Someone who will show me he loves me instead of just saying it.
5. Someone who wants to travel, explore new places. Some one who will run around Disneyland with me, holding my hand and acting like kids again.
6. Someone with a sense of humor, that can make me laugh.
7. Someone, who when I have a problem, no matter how small they think it is, will be there…and just wrap his arms around me and tell me it will be ok.
So there it is… I have put it out in the universe, and I will be paying attention to the opportunities that arise. Months from now, when I come back and read this, we shall see what the outcome is.
Oh...and he should be ok with going to company functions and playing the political game of socializing with me for my career... LOL... I know... I know...I could go on and on...
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
I will be teaching how to make my flowers. I can't say where yet, as I do not know the rules or protocol on this, but I will say it is at a well known event! I am just giddy with happiness over all this. Little did I know when I started this blog that I would be moving so fast on my path that I chose. I go back and read my blog every once in awhile to see how far I have come. It has been an exciting ride and I am sure it will only get better. Here is my advice for anyone who will listen. Life is short people....go after what you want. Take the risks and lay it out on the line. What is the worst that can happen? They say no? Maybe that is the door to something greater....pay attention....
Monday, July 28, 2008
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Today was another good day. It was long...but good. So here is my set up. Not exactly what I had wanted as I was too busy feeling sorry for myself to work on my stuff prior to the show.
Isn't it beautiful? We haven't made a killing at this show but it has been a real learning experience. I will be alot more prepared for Art Unraveled. Although my set up for that show is totally different. We have made lots of connections at this show. I am even thinking about teaching a local class as a bunch of people have asked me to at this show. I have run into old friends, who I used to work with and I have made a bunch of new friends. And of course, there is always Jen. She is so much fun to be with. I don't know what I would do without her!
See my days are cool without you. But I'm hurting while I'm with you.
And though my heart can't take no more, I can't keep running back to you.
See my days are cool without you. But I'm hurting while I'm with you.
And though my heart can't take no more, I won't keep running back to you.
I think I found my strength to finally get up and leave.
No more broken heart for me. No more telling your lies to me.
I'm looking' like I got my head on right so now I see.
No more giving you everything. There's no more taking my love from me.
Glad to wake up every day without you on my brain.
No more waiting late up at night. No more having to fuss and fight.
I'm proud to say that I will never make the same mistake.
No more thinking about what you do. There's no more of me running back to you.
Thursday night was my hardest night. But, in that darkness, in his cold emotion and giving me no hope, I woke up Friday morning with a whole different feeling. A feeling of freedom. A feeling of I can do this and I will move on. And so....Friday was such a fantastic day! Jen and I did our craft fair. It wasn't too busy, but I sold a couple of necklaces. A person came by and said she was next to an "Art Celebrity" cause of my Belle Armoire publishing. LOL...It was cute. I had a about 3 people say that I should teach a class. It was all very flattering. Then I talked with an old friend that I just reconnected with after 20 years. I talked on the phone with him for 2 hours almost! It's funny, but even after that much time has past and all the things that we each have been though, when we talked, it was like nothing had changed. He still can make me laugh, still gives me crap. It's nice to have a friend who knows the real me...the me I used to be before I got married. The wild crazy me that I lost. Not many people bring that out in me. Jen would be another one who brings that out in me. So after the show, I went to PF Chang's with Jen and her husband and we had a wonderful dinner. It was nice to have good conservation and good company. I didn't get home till 9pm.
Thanks again to everyone who sends me emails and offers support. I struggled with if I should post with what is going on with my life, but in the end...I think it's good that I do. This is my online journal. I occasionally go back and read my own posts, so I know how far I have come. It also gives my sisters & family a chance to keep up with my life! I would love to be able to do the same. (Hint Hint). LOL They will know what I mean.
I will be posting pictures of our table set up tonight, after I get home again from the crafters market. If you have read this far bless, you...LOL. I promise...pictures tonight!
So...to all who read my blog...This is me. This is who I am. I am on another journey...to find myself again...
Friday, July 25, 2008
Cindy Dean-Smart, Talented, Middle Aged soon to be divorcee, Boss and Friend to Jen
Jen Gabaldon-Almost 30 year old, smart ass youngster, who couldn’t find her way out of a paper bag, but the best employee Cindy, has had in forever.
Cindy is riding with Jennifer running errands during their lunch break. They pull up to the drive through of Raising Cane’s Chicken, where they only serve chicken fingers. Jen pulls up to the drive thru window, rolls down her car window and orders their meals. As she pulls to the second window, she reaches over and turns off the air conditioner.
CINDY: What are you doing?
JEN: The window is open so I turned off the air.
CINDY: God you’re so cheap! It’s 110 outside. It’s HOT! I am buying you lunch so you can spare the gas to keep the air on!
Jen reaches over and turns the air back on full blast and rolls up her window.
JEN: There! You happy now???
CINDY: You’re such a jerk!
They both start laughing at each other…
Driving back to work, they continue to talk and laugh.
CINDY: I think that we should sign up for the amazing race! (Laughing) We would make one heck of a team and be some major characters.
JEN: What’s the Amazing Race?
CINDY: Oh…COME ON!!! (Laughing) I will show you when we get back to the office but it’s a reality show where they race around the world and try and win the money.
JEN: Money? I’m in. (Laughing)
Cindy is in her office with Jennifer standing behind her and they are watching a snippet from the Amazing Race.
JEN: That looks fun.
CINDY: I think we would have a blast! We would have to get in shape though.
Jen walks back to her office. From across the hall Jen starts to talk to Cindy again.
JEN: You couldn’t be on the amazing race because you would be too HOT and I would have to run around with a little fan to make sure the queen was comfortable. (Laughing)
CINDY: Jerk! Well you wouldn’t do to well either because I would have to be carrying around a whole backpack of hand sanitizer, and you can’t find your way out of a paper bag! (Laughing)
Cindy & Jen start laughing and continue on their day…
Thursday, July 24, 2008
I have been met with silence….and in that silence, I have heard all I need to hear.….it is deafening.
I truly appreciate everyone lending me their support. I will be posting more happy things from now on. I have the Show & Tell Crafters Market this weekend and have been busy getting ready for that. The next 6 weeks will be a whirlwind of activity which has turned out to be a blessing as it takes my mind off of things. Stay tuned cause I will be posting pics of my set up for the show. I am getting pretty good at making those flowers!
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
“Hope is the feeling we have that the feeling we have is not permanent.”-- Mignon McLaughlin
It came from this http://welcometherainmovie.com/?SRC=NETRAINMOVIE
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
The life lesson? It is sometimes the case that good things come to an end and other good things have a beginning and, at times, the two good things simply cannot coexist and so one must let go of the first to gain the second.
Hence, I have had to say goodbye to the past, the husband who was my rock, who was the stable influence in my life, who taught me to be responsible and say hello to the future me. Of finding me again. I had lost a big part of myself during my marriage. I neglected me. So in order to find me, I have to let go of the past. I will be fine…I am strong. I am looking forward to getting to know me…Here’s to a “New Beginning” and the good things to come.
Friday, July 18, 2008
On another note...my little sis was saying that she was needing another visit from Turkey.... and I know she looks at my blog everyday!Come on Sammy...doesn't the pool look inviting? It's calling your name! You can float in the pool and relax and look at the view Besides, I could use a sister visit. That includes all my sisters...oh and it would be good too if my brother came! I need some family loving! Another round of miniature golf anyone?
Winner's Circle Network with Lou Tice - 7/17/08 - "Personal Attacks"
How do you respond to personal affronts or insults? If you have high
self-esteem, they probably don't bother you much, I'll tell you why.
Have you ever noticed that people with low self-esteem have a terrible time
with anything they perceive as an insult? You see, beneath their façade of
self-confidence, they're really not convinced of their own value or
competence. So whenever they believe that someone has insulted or rejected
them, they come unglued.
They fret and fume, they get angry, they spend a lot of time brooding about
it, and sometimes they even seek retaliation or revenge. But people with
high self-esteem just brush it off. For example, at the height of the U. S.
Civil War, President Lincoln and his secretary of war paid a visit to
General McClellan in the battle area to hear first-hand about how the war
As they were waiting for the general to arrive, McClellan came in, covered
in grime. He brushed by them, went upstairs, and eventually sent his maid to
tell them he was tired and had gone to bed. The secretary of war was aghast
and said to Lincoln, "Surely you're not going to let him get by with that.
Surely you will relieve him of his command."
Lincoln thought about it for a minute or two. Then he said, "No, I will not
relieve him. That man wins battles and I would hold his horse and clean his
shoes if it would hasten the end of this bloodshed by one hour." It's the
same for anyone who has high self-esteem. They are so secure that they can
easily be humble and nothing threatens their sense of purpose and
self-worth. Think about that next time you feel someone insults you.
The Pacific Institute
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
And yes I know...one of my bead crimp covers is missing! Arrgggghhhhhh. I was in such a hurry to get these done and out and it was a last minute idea, that I didn't realize it had fallen off until I saw this picture!
So anyways, life is busy, busy, busy. Jen and I need to get it in gear to be ready for our show. It is coming up at lightening speed. Then Art Unraveled! I am looking very forward to that. Taking classes is always so much fun. Someone made a comment to me recently that it has been fun to watch me grow as an artist and that I seem to be finding my direction. But I am still unsure...I do love painting and paper and really want to do more of that. Can't I just do it all??? LOL Do you have to be limited to "just" a jewelry artist or "just" a painter? But I do have to get rid of some of my stash of beads! LOL...hence the shows that are coming up. If you are out and about, come stop by and see me. I would love to meet some of my blog commenter's! I must be off to create...Jen are you busy??????????
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
I think it's way cuter in person. I used the leaf idea of Deryn Mentock. I just think they are so cute. As I am looking at this picture though I think I need to make my cherry stems shorter. That will be a weekend chore though. I was supposed to be doing flowers tonight, but my daughter asked me to go swimming with her and that sounded like an invitation I couldn't pass up. My little fingers are waterlogged as I type this. The water in the pool was just perfect. Our neighbors on the back side of us must have a wasp colony, because they fly over the brick wall and drink from our pool. So Megan and I decided to do some population control. She took the pool net and caught them as they landed on the water and I smushed them! LOL We got 17 of them! There are just a few less wasps in the world now! We worked very well as a team. Maybe one day we should try out for the amazing race! We could kick some A _ _! LOL
Sunday, July 6, 2008
I am on a flower making spree! I just made 5 more tonight. I figure I can make 5 a night for the next 19 days and I will be good to go! Of course on weekends I could make more but I like to try and use my weekends for other jewelry as it takes so much longer to come up with the idea and then put it together. It ought to be an interesting next 8 weeks! Lets see how long I last! LOL. Come on Jen....you gotta keep up with me! LOL
I etched the clam into Nickel, used pearls, moonstones and sterling silver. I actually got the liver of sulphur to work this time! Yea! I also used the little vintage flower that I had laying around.
Then I did a Nest Bracelet. I am not quite finished with it, but I took the pictures anyways.
Friday, July 4, 2008
I found this little top to a salt shaker. Isn't it cute? And the old wooden ruler...that is for my class with Lisa Kaus called gridlocked that I am taking in August at the Zne Convenzione. I will also be a vendor there, so that will be one busy trip! So I must be off to go create. Only 3 weeks until our Show & Tell Crafters Market. It is going to be fun and a learning experience.
Go and check out this little shop called Star of the East She is located in Turkey, which of course I have a great affection for as my sister lives there and I had the time of my life on a blue cruise there. I also bought one more pair of earrings but I can't show them as they are a gift for someone.