Thursday, December 11, 2008

This is how I feel today…dark clouds hanging over my head…not quite dark enough for a thunderstorm, more like a drizzle (tears) and sadness…. I know what it is….yet there is nothing that can be done about it right now….only time…. I hate this kind of weather….but I know that the sun will come out tomorrow or the next day. Such is life…with its ups and downs. How would we know the good times if we didn’t experience the bad?

The day did not start off this way…I actually was thinking pretty positive. I was thinking about how far I have come and how when I set my mind to things, I can do anything. Nothing is impossible; you just have to try for it. I also thought about how much like my father I am. As much as I hate to admit that I am….When I achieve a certain level of success in my work and my art, I tend to get bored and start off onto something new even though I haven’t reached the top. I guess I decide that it is not really what I wanted after all….I am on a continual search for that elusive thing….that one thing that will hold my attention for a long time. Is it out there? Will I find my true calling? Or am I destined to search…maybe the searching is what I like….the discovery of new things…I don’t know…I feel lost right now…directionless….torn….I guess I am at a Y in the road…which way do I go????


shabby*girl said...

Gosh. I thought that I was the only one experiencing this. It's such a desperate feeling. You'll be in my thoughts, Cindy! Big hugs~ Missy

Kim Mailhot said...

Feeling like this in many ways today too...a lunar thing ? A winter thing ? A chaotic universe thing ? Who knows ? But I don't like it !!! Feelng lost, facing the Y in the least we know we are not on the road alone !

You are enough, right now, in this moment.

I am enough, right now, in this moment.


Kerri Jean said...

Hi Cindy,
I am catching up on my favorite blogs. I've been out of sorts myself this month. I am identifying so much with this post. I do the same thing in my art. If you are enjoying the journey, I think that's the most important part. And you are good at so many things. That may make it hard to just choose one or two.