It always amazing to me that when I pour my heart out here on my blog and I think there is no end to my dark tunnel… That my fellow bloggers always make me feel so much better. They understand the feelings I go through…that I am not just some whack job who is totally crazy. They make me see the daylight at the end of the tunnel. I have started to seriously think about plans, options and such and I have made inquiries into my options. I am looking at doing things just for me. What Cindy wants to do…and I am starting to feel a sense of relief. A sense of….whatever happens will be a learning experience and I will be OK no matter what. The wind will take me and I will just let it guide me….if things are meant to be…then they are meant to be…